Thus does a long journey begin with a single step. No momentous event, no last straw breaking my back - just a decision, a culmination of so many MANY moments and thoughts and facts and and and...
Today, March 30, I declared to my most wonderful husband and my most wonderful only kid that I need to lose 100 pounds. Yes, it's true, I said to my husband's (much appreciated) questioning look. I didn't tell him, but I'll tell all you strangers out there - 251.8 as of yesterday evening. At 5'6", this makes my BMI well-over 40, and according to my scale I'm at 48% fat. FORTY-FREAKIN-EIGHT PERCENT BODY FAT!!!!!!!!!!
Let me now say - I love Jesus, I accept him as my lord and savior. I actually work for a church as a youth director. And I cuss a blue streak - I do control it with the youth (about 90% of the time), but I will not be controlling it here. I don't want to be a stumbling block for you if that offends you, so please feel free to stop reading now. If, however, you can handle it, then I invite you to read on!
Where was I - oh yeah - WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF!!!!!!! (See, I don't HAVE to cuss, I just do sometimes, I can handle just using abbreviations.) So that wasn't really the straw either - just that combined with bigger pants, 41 years of age, sore back, sore feet and ankles, worry about blood pressure, and a million other things brought me to this day. Those million other things will reveal themselves.
Why blog it out? Maybe some of you need to read this. I need to write it - I need to put my journey out there, to let others see it, just to bear witness to the journey, as my favorite singer Carrie Newcomer would sing. Don't share if you don't want to. Don't leave mean comments EVER. If you don't like what I've written, then for cryin' out loud STOP READING IT! If you want to share, please do - I'm not a therapist, I can't promise help, only a fellow journeywoman. I can't even promise I'll read your comments - so.
So. It is the first day. Perhaps pictures will be posted. Perhaps behaviors will be logged. I don't know - it's my first blog. But I do know this - I will be on this journey, and you're invited to walk with me or to watch from afar.
Step one...
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
No comments:
Post a Comment