in the right place

So - I've been thinking and continuing to fight the internal fight of this weightloss thing, even if the eating thing is not going well. I went to Heather and got 3 dvd's to use, and I'm surprised to say I plan to use them! I'm comfortable with them, I am motivated by the better feeling in my body, and I have confidence that they work. So that's good.

Kirstie Ally and the battle goes on

Well, I heard today that Kirstie Ally, who had so publicly gone on Jenny Craig, has gained back 30 of the 80 pounds she'd lost. That must just suck so very much, to have been so thin and then gain back so much of it. And that, I think, is the reason I hesitate to be public about weightloss, with the obvious exception of this little blog that all two of you have found - to fail in everyone's face, and to wonder about what I'm seeing in a person's eyes in the light of that failure, is too much for me. At least at this point. I've already experienced it subtlely, since I have in fact gained a bunch of this weight in the last 3 years and had been, shit, 36 pounds lighter, and no one has said a thing, which is nice. But to lose and then gain back! SUUUUCK.